Wednesday, February 18, 2009


I'm trying to think what else I haven't done and CAN do 'cause these days you have to pay even for a good time, but I can't stop living... because I'm dying. So much to do in so little time. When I'm bored and have nothing to do and CAN'T invite my friends over because they are far I think to myself, time's passing. Time wasted. I can't have friends come over for sleep overs, I'm too old for that. I should have known. I should have known sooner how precious time is!

Has it ever occurred to you, when someone mentions a date, say, 1998... and someone says "yea, that's 10 years ago" and you think to yourself, "it's been that long?" That year when some coward terrorist bombed the American Embassy in Nairobi, that was ten years ago? Then it dawns on you that you are dying slow.

No, I'm not dying of a chronic disease, stupid. We are all dying... slowly. And we'll be forgotten, unless if you are B. Obama. When you find yourself with nothing to do, something fun or non-fun.. be afraid.

I do not want to live with fear, fear of dying. When it comes, I want to embrace it rather than fight it. I want to take my last breath thinking; I lived a good life.

I want to die living.

4 Educated Opinions Yet:

Shiko-Msa said...

Sometimes you think the Bomb was a whole 10 years ago and you're like gosh I'm so old!

Mama said...

I know the feeling Screamer, I feel like I haven't done enough in my life and time is just passing on too fast!

Screamer said...

I just wrote a whole post and its lost! damn.

Screamer said...

Thank goodness! I found it in the draft section.

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